I’m going to be so tired today, as I am every single fucking day! but I’m gonna get to work and literally stuff myself until I shit my pants so I can last until lunch time and then do the same so I can last until the time I get home… why is working a full time job so mcfucking tiring LIKE????????? ENOUGH????

I hate ALL superhero movies (except for the x-men franchise and only the ones with mcbender) BUT I will watch spider man far from home just because jake gyllenhaal is in it….. I will and I must. he’s so hot in the trailer, the shoulders!!!!! the green shit comin’ out his palms liek!!!!! he!!!!! my husband!!!! “you don’t want any part of this” um? perhaps I do jacob benjamin gyllenhaal perhaps I DO!

I miss my dad so mcfucking much….I don’t know why, but I miss him so much this time around. my dad flies back and forth from hong kong to canada annually but HONESTLY I want to see him now. I want to bake him bread and watch horror movies with him and see him in the car when my mom comes and picks me up from the bus station. I want to hear him tell some silly ass joke or watch him grating the radish for our traditional new year’s radish cake. I want him to make funny barfing sounds when I ask him if he wants to eat a yawgurt, or snoring on the couch and then waking up saying that he doesn’t snore. I want to go to sushi with him and hear him say “I’m gonna order the cucumber roll” or ask him ‘do you want to eat a grilled cheese?” only for him to say “what’s a grilled cheese?” I want to be with my dad so bad….

and I’d hate to be a broken record but those dinner rolls were so good… I mean, I can sell them good. I was kneading the fucking dough for 25-30 minutes and throughout the whole process of it still sticking to the table and my hands I was like “am I doing this right?” so I had to search online how long does it usually take to knead dinner roll dough and it said 8-10 minutes so I was like UH!!!!!!!! DID I DONE FUCK UP???? and yeah, like I said, I didn’t proof it enough but does that shid legitmately matter when it came out delicious??????? I think it was all the butter I put in like it saved me but because I made the decision to put it in, I saved myself. I am invincible. I can bake bread…… not a lot of people can do that FRANKLY  

bruv………. those dinner rolls are the greatest things I’ve ever baked in my whole history of baking and I’m seriously about go into the bathroom and cry. they were SO good, they were so buttery and soft. the last time I followed this WHITE GIRL’S recipe for dinner rolls and they came out like horse shid…. they were crumbly and shiddy and disgusting. so I had bread trauma for a long time, but I followed this new recipe (that I posted just a few pages down of my blog) and it took be LITERALLY 25 minutes to knead the dough until it wasn’t sticky but you know what??? It was worth it because the result is creamy delicious homemade dinner rolls, none of that frozen shit from walmart (which also tastes good actually no hate whatsoever). I didn’t even proof the bread until it was double it’s size, because I wanted to finish them before midnight. so when I baked it they were maybe a third of it’s original size but it still came out good!!!!!!!!!! hojun and I can get married now because we both bake bread!!!!! I can honestly do anything 

I made those dinner rolls I wanted to make last night but I didn’t make it ANY earlier than yesterday so it’s f ucking midnight and I just started baking them but you know what! I worked so hard on them, if they don’t taste good I’ll just have to fall into a cycle of depression. I didn’t let them proof as long because a bitch is on a SCHEDULE but they smell nice, and they’re baking nice so you know what? maybe god is looking down on me tonight. hold my hand and pray with me.

THEY TASTE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD I’M BOUT TO CRY :’)

I love ryeowook so much….. he has one of the smoothest, yet unique vocals in kpop and he has ALWAYS been terribly underrated despite giving his best performances live and giving super junior the stylistic flare they need on stage. without him singing mamacita live, that song wouldn’t have meant anything. drunk in the morning, without you, the little prince, have and probably will fly under the radar ONCE again because the world is corrupt but in my heart he will always be the best! forever and always! music wouldn’t even EXIST if ryeowook didn’t become a singer that I know